Instead, I was surrounded by the types of people you'd expect to see in an advanced yoga class in LA.
As I walked through the center of them, I felt incredibly self-conscious.
Everything was covered except for the perfect, white circle of my knee poking out of the water. Promising myself that every time I looked at that scar, I'd feel grateful for my body — and then forgetting that promise. I was going through a terrible breakup and had lots of anxiety. I wasn't happy; I was happy I was thin — that there was a frozen moment I can now hold up and show to the world that says, I left the bath in a funk. Instead of owning my body, I let the world tell me who I'm supposed to be and how I'm supposed to look.
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Self-proclaimed self-love enthusiast Kenzie Brenna has decided she’s not doing anything about the loose skin on her stomach.
On our way in, he casually mentioned, "Oh, they're naked baths. But, it didn't mean I got to reverse time or have a do-over with my body.
The Before and After pictures you see on billboards — they're a lie.
When I hold my arms and legs out, I still look like a flying squirrel. I walked out onto the dimly lit patio, naked, in public, for the first time in my adult life.
I have stretch marks running down the tops of my shoulders, and there's extra skin hanging off my arms and inner thighs. To my dismay, it wasn't an "every-body" kind of spa.
So, I feel like a hypocrite writing something that is supposed to tell others to accept themselves when I don't accept myself.
The truth is, I genuinely think everyone should accept themselves — everyone, except for me. The Anti-Diet Project is an ongoing series about intuitive eating, rational fitness, and body positivity.
Freshman year of high school, I got so big that when I took a bath, I could no longer cover myself completely with the water. Sitting in that tub at the "spa," I thought about all the things I've done to my body: hating it, hiding it, starving it. I don't know about you, but I am so sick of striving for fucking beauty.